Craziest Week of 2010

This is a long one. Stick with me. Or skip to the end. It’s been a couple weeks since I’ve updated–I’ve been way busy. Last week, I went to the NIT semi-finals with my friend, Ryan, who went to UNC also, because UNC played (and won against!) University of Rhode Island. I don’t think I’d ever met anyone from Rhode Island. It was a place I didn’t really know existed…but anyway, what was totally nuts about the game, besides both teams’ awful playing, was that URI’s color is identical to UNC’s. Which was pretty immediately obvious. And then additionally, their mascot is a RAM!!! Which I guess isn’t as crazy as if it were a ram AND a tar heel…but STILL. Crazy. Same color, same mascot. Ryan and I heard this URI chick whining, with the help of surly significant amounts of alcohol, “They stole our color AND our mascot!” We felt similarly. But it was a fun little adventure. Wednesday night I got to spend some time with my lovely roommate, Palmer, scoping out hotties at the Columbia Chipotle before he left for Guyana to bring back some cheap, delicious rum.

Thursday, I left for DC on the most horrific round-trip bus ride experience yet (this is what I get for traveling on a holiday weekend I suppose)–we waited for two hours to get on the bus, which would’ve been kind of annoying, mostly since my cell phone battery was dying, buuuut was made horrendous because this woman behind me talked THE ENTIRE TIME despite the fact that I had head phones in, listening to the Savage Lovecast (which I get a huge kick out of listening to in public…it feels so dirty, and people have no idea…), and part of the time reading/looking at things on my iPhone. It was quite clear to anyone who cared that I didn’t really want to have a full conversation. This lady did not care. I discovered the reason when I noticed about an hour through the wait that her teenage son was with her. He had his headphones in, watching a movie or something and laughed periodically. So she’s totally used to having someone ignore her! THAT’S why she breezed past my social cues. Anyway, as we were about to get on the bus, an hour and a half later than we were supposed to leave, she starts bitching at the poor guy loading bags in that we won’t get to DC until after midnight, and why are we stopping in Philadelphia, and this is so wrong, and repeat. Finally, her son looks up from his iPod, turns to her and goes, “Mom. No one wants to hear you complain. Everyone is annoyed. Just be quiet!” Though she ignored him, I felt so incredibly bad for him. Or perhaps he’s fortunate that he has learned to deal with obnoxious people in a reasonable way (at that point, what he said was INCREDIBLY reasonable). The bus ride itself wasn’t awful.

The weekend in DC was wonderful–cherry blossoms were in bloom, and I took the day Friday to explore and photograph them, which was fun. I also got to have lunch with my uncle, which was nice. It was a gorgeous, sunny & even hot day. Later, I got to go on a little adventure with Ali since she ran into (and when I say, “ran into” I mean, DROVE into) a curb when she was trying to pick me up, and blew her tire. I heard it hisssss from across the street. Not cool. Her boyfriend changed the tire to the spare that we didn’t know if it would fit (but it did!!) and was just generally, as usual, such a trooper. It all worked out. Not exactly our plan for the afternoon, but whatever.

Friday night, I got to hang out with another friend. More, perhaps, on that later.

Saturday, I went to see Clash of the Titans with Ali, Alex (her boyfriend) and Lacey (my sister). We went in 3-D, which I probably wouldn’t do again, but it was entertaining. I wasn’t blown away, and definitely wouldn’t see it again, but it was worth seeing I suppose. Having not seen the original one, it was like Avatar, without the blue people, and in bad 3-D.

Saturday night I made myself a really nice little dinner and just spent some quality time with Lacey’s dog, who is one of my favorites, hanging out. It was actually quite nice. And, as anyone who knows me can attest, I appreciated a full night of sleep. Sunday, I went for a 8.6 mile walk around DC with Lacey and a friend of her’s, Jeffery, who works in the White House. We had a really fantastic conversation and delectable brunch in the middle. An excellent way to wrap up the weekend, and to spend Easter (if I celebrated it…).

Returning on the bus was, once again, pretty awful, this time due primarily to traffic.

This week was way crazy. Monday was pretty mundane…Tuesday I was sick again. Which was REALLY annoying. But I was pretty productive on my sick day–I sent out some resumes, updated my resume (wrong order–I updated it first). Then Wednesday, at our weekly meeting at work, we found out that our main clinical supervisor is GONE. His last day was Tuesday. Shock of shockers! I do not want to say too much here. Who knows who reads this. But everyone was pretty sad, and mostly did not understand why he’d left (apparently he was offered a choice to be fired or resign. He resigned). Anyway, to discuss this further, you’ll have to email or call me directly, but it was a bit surprising. More than anything, I feel really bad for our now-total supervisor, because she will literally have to do both jobs. That sucks.

Wednesday afternoon I got to hang out with Natacha and her kids–we got some food and had a little rock-picnic in Central Park–it was sweet to be able to be outside sans coat into the darkness, which I took further advantage of by trekking down to Brooklyn to meet up with Ryan and a mutual friend from high school, Lindsay. We had some beers out on the patio of a cute little bar, very pleasant. I do love the warm weather. Unfortunately, that has since left us, and today is a bit chillier.

I’m still in the process of getting stuff together for Peace Corps, trying to figure out my life. I’m also not entirely ruling out the possibility of moving to DC. But overall I’ve been in an excellent mood–things are moving and shaking, in a bigger way, and I’m getting used to that. Life isn’t so exciting daily, but that’s okay. Oh!! And I finally got my insurance card!

Sick :-(

I’ve been battling this obnoxious sickness (mainly just throat pain) all week and last weekend. I had an extremely frustrating tussle with trying to go to the doctor. Basically, I still (still!!) have not received my insurance card, though I was supposed to get it in the end of January, or at LEAST by March 18th, and so even though my insurance is active and I have a subscriber number, so I’m technically able to use it, it has to be verified. So when I tried to go to a clinic after work on Monday, they couldn’t see me because they were unable to verify that I did, indeed, have insurance. So, I left with my horribly painful throat, in the cold rain. It was not a happy day. Tuesday, I had the first day of my Zumba dance class (yay!) and somehow managed to work through the pain, mostly with the aid of herbal tea and acetaminophen. But I was actually feeling really great and thinking, well maybe I DON’T need to go to the doctor. Cut to Wednesday morning–OUCH. I was in so much pain, I ended up asking my supervisor if I could go to the doctor in the afternoon, which he graciously allowed. So I headed to this Express Urgent care place that I’d found through my insurer (same place I went on Monday), and they were able to verify my insurance and see me. I was in and out in about 2 hours, which I think is pretty reasonable. The doctor I saw was a bit odd, and I despite his saying, “I’m not here to just throw pills at you” about 4 times, it seemed pretty obvious that he wasn’t too concerned that I had anything very serious, and gave me a prescription for some penicillin, which I ended up simply paying for out of pocket because it was easier than trying to get the numbers for the pharmacy from my ridiculous insurance.

So that was my adventure in healthcare–frustrating, and kind of a slap in the face after the exciting passage of health care reform. It was a disappointing reminder that HCR won’t really change anything (contrary to all the hubbub spouted out by the Conservative Crazies). But Zumba was pretty sweet! And I’m really exciting I’m FINALLY doing something outside of work. I’m also looking for some volunteer research positions to fill some time, give me something to do.

In other life news, I am “babysitting” tonight (yay!) though what that actually means is sitting by myself in an apartment on the UES and having to stay awake until 12am, then 1am to get home. But at least it will get me out of the house. It’s cold again, which I’m not appreciating. But I did get to perform last night at a Haiti benefit thing with a coworker, and it was a lot of fun. I’m hoping I’ll get to do some more of that while I’m here.

The real exciting news–I submitted my Peace Corps application. Finally (a year later…!). I am super excited about the possibility, and also nervous about this crazy adventure. I’m also going to DC again next weekend, leaving Thursday afternoon since I get Friday off (w00t!). Should be a nice weekend (70s and cherry blossoms…?!), and I’ll have a bit more time than I did last time, which will give me a chance to actually explore a bit hopefully.

Oh! I can’t believe I almost forgot this–shows how little I care about my job/how small a part of my emotional life it is. We found out this week that the case management program will be cut, over in 60 days. Which doesn’t directly affect my work exactly, except that hopefully we’ll get some more patients out of it, and my coworkers are probably losing their jobs (that part sucks a lot), including the supervisor who I really respect and appreciate. So that’s the sort of downer of the week, the REAL downer. I still kind of can’t believe it’s real. I think for now, my job is safe, but even our program is down on its numbers. But that’s all for now I think. Just tryin’a make it to the next thing, happily and safely.

Isolation

So I haven’t written for quite some time, and I figured I should give an update. I suppose you’re thinking from the title that this will be a depressing post. You would be wrong if you thought that. I’ve had a pretty excellent week, especially considering that one of my co-workers was “terminated,” which, as Fancy Nancy says, is a fancy way of saying “fired.” But it has surprisingly not really gotten me down. First of all, I should say she was fired for something she definitely did and it’s not a situation where I’m worried about my own position because she was let go. And I’ve actually felt more connected to the rest of my co-workers this week, which may or may not be connected to that.

I made my first hospital visit this week. I went to St. Luke’s, which I believe is known for being not such a great hospital, and it’s strange, being in a hospital makes me want to go to medical school. Is that weird?? I kind of liked it. It seemed so interesting, like there were things happening there. Life & death things. Important things. Anyway, it probably helped that the patient I was visiting was doing pretty well, not in horrible shape. Or maybe I’m just becoming an optimist. Or in an optimistic mood. I have been taking Vitamin D. Evidently that could help. I’m also really feeling that kind of thankful you feel after you think you’re going to have to go to the Apple store after your late day at work and pay $80 for a power chord for your computer that you actually would like to replace, but aren’t quite financially able to, and wake up to discover that with a small fix, the problem can be solved temporarily immediately and permanently for $13 on the internetz.

But part of what I want to write about is actually something I was talking with my mother about this week. I’ve been feeling really isolated, not necessarily lonely, but sometimes that too. My job is…interesting. I get to meet so many people, and I get to talk to them, connect with them. Which is great. But they are my patients. and even my coworkers are from such different backgrounds. Most of them are from New York City and I am the only non-Hispanic, white person in my department. Which doesn’t in and of itself actually mean anything. I think their being from New York City probably makes a bigger difference. But most of them have also not gone to college, or are in the process of it as older adults. Several of them are recovering from drug addiction problems. These people have faced very different challenges in their lives. I’ve really enjoyed getting to know them–as I do, it’s taken some time for me to connect on the individual level with them, but it’s happening and I definitely know they are committed to their patients, which is pretty awesome. It’s just that they’re amazed by some of the things I can do or that I know, and actually more than anything I sort of feel awkward about it, because I don’t mean to at all be showing anyone up. I’m just being me. But at the same time, I feel in other ways that I have to prove myself a bit. And I think I’m starting to do that. I think people have started to recognize and appreciate some of my **awesome** abilities. Still, I can’t deny that I’m different, both in where I’ve come from and probably where I’m going. I guess it’s kind of cool though to get to know these people, to connect with people who seem to have nothing in common with me. There is something very human about it.

I’m also really excited (this is connected some to the above) about Electronic Medical Records, which we had a training in today and discovered that we will be “going live” on December 1st with the portion used to make appointments and January 20th (or around then) with all of it. I don’t think I could possibly convey my excitement. I love technology. It is amazing. And one thing that bothers me so so so much is underuse of it. I know there are barriers. Cost. People who work in any job (see: my coworkers). I know not everyone catches on as quickly as I do, but it just is so useful! Anyway, there was much whispering amongst the EMR trainers when they saw how quickly I did the little task they assigned us and then also proceeded to explore the interface (“Have you used ECW before??” “nope. I just learn things quickly…”). They’re going to have these Super-Users who get more training/know more in-depth how to use the software, but have “regular” jobs within the organization, and they want me to be one!! And since my supervisor was right there, they asked him and he said of course. Sooooo. I’m pretty psyched about it. Then all my coworkers were like, “uh, we’re calling YOU when we don’t know how to do things.” Happy to help!

So that’s fun fun stuff. I’m off to eat my carrots and apple and hummus and watch some Glee, which is (fantastically!) back.

Sickness, Disillusionment and Disappointment

This week, unfortunately, can be summarized as sickness, disillusionment and disappointment. So I started feeling sick Wednesday, and it hasn’t gotten much worse–mostly just stuffy nose, a headache, and feeling overall exhausted and icky. Trying to drink lots of tea and still work. Because what I discovered today is that the few 4 days that I THOUGHT I got for vacation after my 3 months of probation, turns out is actually 1 day. So I get one day for the holidays. Yippee!! AND, after that, I can’t take off ANYthing until the end of March (6 months). I think I get some sick days…but nothing other than that. So I’m a little annoyed by that. But I guess that’s just how things go. Good thing I don’t actually care about Christmas.

The disillusionment is a combination of work and seeing “Where The Wild Things Are.” I guess I wasn’t disillusioned by the movie, but it highlighted some of the feelings I’m having about the world. It is a tragic place, where things could work so much more effectively and efficiently, but they don’t because everyone is just so busy doing their own teeny piece, and just cannot see the big picture and how their piece fits into that. And even someone like me, who can see it, does, they usually conclude that it is not worth it to even attempt to overhaul the system. It would be too much work for something that most likely will not happen. The cost in time, effort, and anything else is simply not worth the miniscule possibility that anything at all would change. So I guess the best any of us can do is figure out which part is worth fighting for, and what we are willing to devote to that. Anyway, it’s just annoying.

The disappointment was the not being able to take off much time for the holidays. I miss my friends and family who will be in Chapel Hill for the holidays, and won’t be back for a year. It’s frustrating knowing I’ll be able to come for a week in April, but could only come for a weekend any time before that (which I might do).

That’s about all. I’m pretty exhausted from the sickness, but I have the second half of my bed back (yay!) so that’s pretty exciting. Mostly, I think I just need rest.

Crumbling a bit

This past weekend was nice–I got to see my sister, Delacey, who is up here for a film workshop, which was really nice and hopefully I will get to see more of her while she’s here for the month.

But then this week hit me like a truck. I am extremely frustrated by the lack of oversight at my job. I know everyone is busy, and I really don’t think I need to be micromanaged, but I have been working on my own to create an access database (yay!), but then the other stuff that I AM supposed to be doing I keep messing up because it is so simple. This is how I have always been. If something seems to easy, my brain just shuts off, especially if I haven’t done it before. I want to do everything with someone first, and that keeps not happening. I suppose I haven’t made it as clear as I could that that is what I need, but I just feel like an idiot, which I know I’m not. Anyway, on top of that, I’m considering possibly still going to Europe, and trying to figure out how to go about that. But all of that together is a bit overwhelming.

So that’s where I am. Screwin’ things up as usual!

First Day

So I had my first day at work yesterday. It went pretty well–I organized files and more administrative boringish stuff, but I felt really productive, which was a nice change of pace. Today is a bit different. I went to my first case presentation meeting–where the case workers meet and present some of the cases they’re working on. So I got to hear about some of their patients. Basically, as far as I can determine, my job will be to act as someone’s mother when they are adults. I’m not entirely sure how I feel about this. I’ve spent a lot if energy and time trying to un-learn to take care of other people, and I’m yet unsure whether I believe this will just feel really natural and easy or really piss me off. For now, I’m waiting around in my cubicle where my supervisor told me how to make phone calls…? And he’s suppose to come over in a bit to start more official (I think) training. I’ll keep you updated!

New Job!

So I’m have a particularly annoying day. My computer is being so so slow. I’m dealing with a bunch of logistical issues–getting back to NC and getting a driver’s license in NY and such…fun fun. But I did want to take some time and just write a little explanation about my new job!

First of all, just to give a little background on the structure of what I’m doing right now–I am an AmeriCorps VISTA (at least for a few more hours!), which means I am in some ways an employee of the federal government…but then I work at a particular site where I go every day. This varies immensely by who you are (it’s like an assignment). The individual site (as I understand it) pays SOMETHING (less even than what I receive; plus it include my recruitment and everything). My site is the Center*; even more specifically I’ve gone to work most days at one of their school-based health centers at a High School on the Upper West Side. So. I’m not employed currently by the Center*; but that is where my new job will be.

Additionally, the Center* has several sites–the Upper Manhattan center is only one of them, AND I’ll actually be at a satellite site that is only satellite because there isn’t enough room at the big center. So it’s on the upper West side and houses the mental health department. I’m excited about this because it’s way more laid-back and chill than the big center.

Onto the actual position–the title is Peer Specialist, although that isn’t very descriptive (I don’t think). So, the basics of what I’ll be doing is this: finding, contacting and bringing in HIV positive patients who have, for some reason or another, disappeared–stopped coming to their appointments. The position is funded by a grant from the City. They have determined, through research, that HIV positive patients are less expensive to take care of, protect their partners (sexual or drug-using) better and healthier (although that’s, you know, not as important because it isn’t about money directly…) when they go to their primary care physician on a regular basis. If they have missed more than 3 appointments in the past 9-14 months, they are eligible for enrollment into the program I’ll be working in, and at that point, I would contact them, or try to contact them, and figure out what is preventing them from coming to their appointment(s) and help them problem-solve for at least 6 months to come to their appointment(s) regularly.

So there you go. In a nutshell.

But the next few weeks will be exciting and interesting. I will be getting to Chapel Hill September 12th, taking care of 3 year old twins and a 5 year old by myself for a week (though taking them to preschool during the day), have a weekend with all of my family (all of my mom’s siblings and all of mine will be in the same city probably for the first time since my grandfather died 7 years ago). I’m actually really excited about the random and unintended family reuinion, but because it has been so random, I’m a little worried about it being just crazy/unplanned/overwhelming because of that. So I’ll try to blog a bit while I’m home/during that whole experience.

*Names have been changed.

The first weekend to myself in a month…!

This weekend I finally had some time to myself, which was really nice. Yesterday, I hung out with my friend Alex, watched the UNC game, then went to the party Alex had with her roommates.

This week I taught my puberty class to 7th graders at MS 54 and did vision and hearing screenings for elementary schoolers, which was a lot of fun. It was really nice to get out of the school and see such a different age group. The excitement of this week came at the end–we had a meeting with both AmeriCorps and VISTA members last Friday, and I spent all of our breaks talking to a guy who is in Americorps. At the end of the day, we exchanged phone numbers, and I expected him to be an interesting person to talk to or hang out with. But we went to get drinks this past Friday, and really hit it off. He has worked at an EMT for the past 6 years in Springfield, Mass, and he had to leave to dispatch at around 8, but we really just got along so well, and I’m very excited about getting to have dinner with him this Thursday, which we plan on doing.

That’s about all I have for now…I am excited about my job, and getting along well with Molly, which is good. So all’s well. Nothing too terribly exciting, and still loving New York :-D.

National Women and Girl’s HIV/AIDS Awareness Health Fairs

This week has been the week of health fairs–and it has been CRAZY.

Most of them went pretty well, they were just busy. Today we had the first health fair in a middle school, with classes coming in for 15 minutes, 2 classes at a time, and playing games/answering HIV/AIDS questions (really basic stuff, but important). Though the woman organizing it was way late, which totally stressed me out, it ended up being fine, and I even got VISTAs to help out (other people in my big program), which was nice. i think the kids learned a lot, especially this fair today. A lot of the high schoolers were at least more familiar with HIV/AIDS. But it’s always nice to feel like I’m actually making a difference.

I also got to meet with the School Leadership Team, the group of teachers & parents who make the curriculum for the elementary school we work in. I also seriously adore the principal there–he is really hilarious. I’m looking forward to doing the puberty curriculum there that we were discussing, even though it’s sort of a sensitive subject at a sensitive age. Still, I’m excited. Maybe not as much as middle school…but that’s just gonna be hilarious.

I also got to meet the new girl I’ll be working with at my actual site. Her name is Molly, and she’s from Texas…she seems very interesting. I feel like that’s about all I can say about her now. I think I like her, and I hope we’ll be able to work well together. But I’m not 100% sure that’s true.

Anyway, I’m exhausted, and Ali’s coming tomorrow. I’m sure this weekend will not be very chilled out. On the other hand, I’ve discovered (and finally begun to appreciate) this awesome website. Check it out. What I’ve discovered it the beauty of “uploading,” or matching, all of your songs. Sweetness!

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The End of February

Again, my apologies for the length of time between my entries. I definitely have a lot to write about now, AND I have some time at work (which has become a rarity).

I made it through President’s week with no high school kids around and have mostly gotten back into the groove of having my Peer Education class. I like the kids in it–there are only 4 on a good day, so it’s easy to manage, and they’re mostly good kids. I’ve enjoyed teaching them, and enjoyed learning how to teach. It’s a weird class because I’m sitting down with them, so it doesn’t feel as much like a class. But we’ve made it work.

Otherwise in work, we’ve been planning for this health fair to celebrate National Women & Girls’ HIV/AIDS Awareness Day, which FINALLY is this week. We had the first fair on Friday, which went really well despite what appeared to be a huge amount of disorganization. But I was a little stressed about that last week. We had a poster contest for the event that was more or less a huge bust; we got no posters from one of the five schools. But it is fine–we got a lot from another school and it all worked out.

I also have landed teaching a puberty/pregnancy prevention class at one of our middle schools (MS 54) and in another health class in a middle school (MS 260). I taught my first class at MS54 last week, and I was SO nervous, but it went well, despite my running out of time. I felt like a real teacher, too! Very cool. And the kids had so many questions–I’m really excited about teaching them and offering them a perspective of someone who is willing to talk about this stuff. They are a Delta class, which is an honors program at the school, so they’re a little bit of a different demographic than we’re exactly trying to reach out to, but whatever.

That’s pretty much work life. I’m excited that things are getting busier, but I am also sort of nervous about that. AND, I’m officially 6 months into my service, which is crazy. But true.

I’ve also had several people come visit. My friend Adam (from Appalachian days) was here last weekend, which was nice. We went to the American Museum of Natural History and saw several of their shows, which were awesome, and we also went to the Climate Change and Butterlies special exhibits. We also took the Staten Island Ferry…accidentally at night…so we could see the Statue of Liberty. The view was really beautiful of the city at night…the Statue of Liberty not that exciting. The other big thing we did was go to the 9/11 site and take a tour with people who had helped with the cleanup/been directly affected by the attack. It was a lot more interesting than I was expecting, and I felt like I learned quite a bit, partly because I tried to pay little attention to everything when it happened because I was so turned off by our lovely President’s response. We also went to Century 21, which is right by the 9/11 site, and seriously the most awesome department store I’ve ever been to. Sweet! It was a good time overall.

Then Daniel (friend from Germany who studied abroad at UNC) arrived literally the same day Adam left…He has been here a week now and is leaving (sadly :-() tomorrow. I’ve been going to work and meeting him wherever he is when I get off. We watched the VA Tech v UNC game on Wednesday, but mostly just walked around. Saturday, we trekked around Central Park, as it was BEAUTIFUL outside. We went to a comedy show Saturday night, as well as a nice dinner at Le Monde (the restaurant my former roommate worked at). It’s provided me a wonderful excuse to get out and do stuff, but also, we’ve had some nice weather, which makes me realize how excited I am for it to get nice here. I’m really looking forward to wanting to get out and do stuff, even just by myself.

On top of all that, another friend got stuck in NY, and I’m going to dinner with him tonight. AND Ali, along with two of her friends, is coming this weekend. Needless to say, I’m getting plenty of social time. When it rains, it pours, no? It’s been nice having people I love come visit…and I look forward to more of that!

I’ve also been thinking more about what I want to do next year. I’m still sort of hoping I’ll be able to find a decent job here (and I perhaps have some leads…), but I am still trying to figure out how I’m going to fit 1) traveling around South America and 2) going to nursing school (perhaps at UNC….) into the next 8 years of my life. As for now, I’m trying to focus on the moment, and just enjoy my job being something interesting and having so many people come visit, as well as living in such a fabulous place.

Check back–I’m planning on posting some fun stories from my puberty classes…I know there will be :-).

Much love!
Shannon