Just when you think you’ve gotten over something….it comes back to haunt you. Isn’t that how shit works? I’ve been really frustrated recently. With work, with life. Feeling strangely nostalgic, and feel like I need to do SOMEthing differently. Or different. Or something. I’m bored and overwhelmed and frustrated and excited and jaded all at the same god damned time. And I feel so self-congratulatory and don’t want to feel that any more.

There’s a massive thunder storm going on right now. And I totally feel like that. Or maybe like it’s about to happen, like it’s been building and I just need something to HAPPEN. I think this is my problem with the saving lives and shit–I just am not feeling fulfilled, somehow, still. And I am so frustrated by that. And whatever, maybe I just need to relax and live in the moment more. Find that place I was in 2 weeks ago, when nothing bothered me. I’m just not sure how to get there from here.